Diruktober Day 16: Ranunculus

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 Diruktober is a DIR EN GREY themed inktober challenge by re_be_ka_f. I chose to use them as writing prompts to join in on the fun. 


 That song I hate is playing again. It reminds me of all the times I hid my true self. It reminds me of all the times I pretended to be normal to keep you happy under my arm. 

You can’t keep love if you’re a person like me. The long nights of kicking the sheets because I’m uncomfortable in my own skin can wear on someone sharing the bed with you. I didn’t do it to pretend I lived a normal life. I did it for you. The fear of losing you kept me from blossoming, an eternal flower bud, not quite letting my many petals feather. 


Now it’s just Autumn and you’ve left. Had you broken things off with me or died, the pain would’ve been no different. Spring seems like a distant dream, a mockery of me in the blooming petals.

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